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Journaling

For the last few weeks, I’ve been keeping a journal. I write in it most mornings, at least three pages each morning, always starting with dreams, and just doing a stream of consciousness until I feel done.

I once took a class all about dreams, and the only assignment was to write them down. In each session, the professor would start by asking us what we’d been dreaming. That semester I was creating a thesis for my major, one that was super-intense because I was using all of these painful childhood memories to create a short story, and I think the class helped me process a lot of things. I think dreams matter a lot, and writing down the weird ones I have is helping me to write other things. Like this. Hello!

The dream journal is part of this bigger thing I’m doing, which is all about developing routines and discipline in order to give myself more space/time to be creative. This is really, really hard. For all of my intentions to be a writer, I seem to really get in my own way when it comes to actually, you know, writing. Today I did about ten things besides write. They were important things, but not as important as writing. So I’ll try again tomorrow, and we’ll see how it goes.

Norooz

Happy New Year. The best part of Persian New Year is that it actually coincides with the renewal of nature. And hyacinths are making my living room smell really great.

1387 was full of change and upheaval. I am hoping for a more chilled out 1388. And for a bit of good news that I’ve been waiting for, which is due within the next week or so.

I wish everyone contentment with who they are, where they are, and what they do.

Taxes

I really don’t understand why paying them is such a big deal. 

With all the t’s crossed and i’s dotted and the refund processed, I paid about 15% of my income to the government. My tax guy told us to buy a house or a condo so we’ll get more money back… but then we’ll be in debt for years. And tied to a physical location, with a structure I have to worry about. And responsible for boring things like home repair and remodeling. And stuck with huge reams of paperwork every year when we need to file, rather than just a tiny stack. 

No, thanks. Perhaps I am being a simpleton, but I’d rather pay the taxes than complicate my life tenfold. Besides, I think it’s a small price to pay when that 15% pays for roads and schools and welfare. Those are all things that cost money and which we need for a safe and stable society, which ultimately ends up benefitting me. 

But, since I am paying taxes and okay with it, perhaps I should be a more engaged stakeholder and actually pay attention to how, exactly, my tax money is spent.

What I want from the Internet: A list in no particular order

Information

Curation

Entertainment

Organization

Tools

Stories

Connection

Intimacy

Therapy

Closeness

Structure

Neutrality

Thoughtfulness

Openness

Kindness

Deliberation

Blogs

Honesty

Is TV Killing the Web?

Since way before I started working in online video, I’ve thought a lot about how narrative structure and story arcs are changing because of the web. My thesis in college was all about this, and culminated in an autobiographical Flash project that is really too complicated to explain in this post.

Non-linear structures are inherent in this medium, and there’s a certain self-determination inherent online - the hyperlink is a powerful thing, allowing you to essentially create your own “narrative” as you browse the web.

Online video started in very non-linear ways, too - or maybe as less of a narrative-driven format. I’m thinking about the Numa-Numa guy, cam girls, and webcasting - there’s not a lot of story there. It just was/is.

I think these types of videos, and the nature of the web, have made us really comfortable with non-narrative content. It just is what it is, and we make of it what we want, if we want to make anything, by creating our own stories around it - by sharing it with others and talking about it, or by building on it in the form of remixes/mashups.

Now that television has made its way onto the web in a legitimate way, by which I am really just talking about TV that’s streamed online (hello, Hulu!), I really wonder how the way we tell stories in online video will change. Or if it will change at all.

After all, humans have been telling stories since we had to carve them into cave walls. Stories won’t go away - we need them too much. But I feel like there is something different happening in video that is created just for this medium - it’s more about the people watching it, about creating communities around the content and bringing that community in, and even letting the community change/build on the content. 

When the writers’ strike happened and Hollywood was paralyzed, a lot of people who don’t love the web and don’t seem to understand the web very well began creating content for the web. And a lot of it, even from people who make good TV, really sucked, because it’s a copy-and-paste of one-way TV. It doesn’t add anything. It doesn’t care about its audience.

I love television - but I do think a lot about if TV formats and TV thinking and TV people who don’t get the web are holding back online video. So far, TV developed just for the web by TV people has really failed to impress me, and this seems to be where a lot of people (i.e., advertisers, distributors, studios, etc.) want to pour their money. I think they’re missing the boat.

MELUS

My review of Porochista Khakpour’s Sons and Other Flammable Objects was published in MELUS (The Society for the Study of the Multi-Ethnic Literature of the United States) this summer and I am finally getting around to posting about that… You can read an excerpt of the review here.

Rupert Murdoch

Apparently, endlessly controversial media magnate Rupert Murdoch has a fear of… pregnant women? From Michael Wolff’s Vanity Fair profile:

For the first three months of our interviews, he never addressed a word to or even looked at my research assistant, Leela de Kretser, who was at each of the sessions, and ignored her questions—perhaps because it’s not necessary to acknowledge a girl, or possibly because it was embarrassing for him that she was, at the time, a pregnant girl. (She had the baby. He eventually warmed up.)

Eh? Truly?

Lady Tycoons of 2008

Yesss! The 2008 Forbes list of the world’s most poweful women is out! My personal faves (in the top 20):

1. Angela Merkel, Germany’s chancellor, who is so powerful that everyone knows they better call her by the German pronunciation of her name: ANG-ell-a

2. Cristina Fernandez, Argentina’s president, not afraid to rock the fuchsia satin blazer

3. Yulia Tymoshenko, Ukrainian president, wearer of regal braid crown

A Lot of the Same

I’m bored of the Internet.

Lady Tycoons: Wenda Harris Millard

I’m going to start a new category on this blog, one that highlights cool lady tycoons who are my role models. Most of the CEOs of the companies I care about are old white men (Rupe, Barry D., Si, even Denton, who may not be old but def qualifies as a silver fox) which is boring, but I think the Internet is going to change that. I have no real data behind the Internet being a catalyst for changing the gender breakdown of the tycoon landscape, but the Internet has changed a lot of stuff and it’s just a hopeful hunch on my part.

First up, Wenda Harris Millard, co-CEO at Martha Stewart Living Omnimedia and the Chairman of the Interactive Advertising Bureau (IAB) - no Wikipedia entry, which is a total shame but she seems like an un-fameball so I guess it makes sense. Millard used to work at Yahoo , and my favorite thing about her is that she really understands that the Internet rocks so hard that we should (paraphrased) “not commoditize Internet advertising before figuring out its ‘value proposition’” (i.e., stop selling ads for so cheap). Here she is, saying very smart things in an interview with Kara Swisher:

I really love seeing women like Millard in positions of power - I think she’s super smart and MSLO is lucky to have her.

Disclosure: I used to work at an online ad agency and MSLO was one of my clients (well, a client of the team I was on - I wasn’t in charge or anything and though I worked closely with the contact at MSLO, I never got to talk to WHM, but I am probably more cognizant of her coolness because of where I worked).